Back from the dead, yet again

Hey chickadees!
I just wanted to let you guys know that I have a tumblr full of randomz and I think you might stay interested if you follow me. I can't promise to update daily, but I can promise I've been on tumblr more than blogger.
If you're interested; http://www.tumblr.com/blog/xdeidannax

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Oh please my dearest readers, demand this! Even if you don't know who she is or don't care if she comes to Columbus. Do it for me! It would be a dream come true to be able to go see her ♥

I suppose I should write a journal

Today was day 8 in junior year.
Junior year isn't all that it's cracked up to be.
What happened to the promises of sophomore year being the hardest? I didn't have AP in sophomore year. My life was a breeze last year.
But, enough complaining.

I'm going to Chrissy's tomorrow and possibly spending the weekend. At this rate, it'll be school, Shayne's, Chrissy's [in that order] all year :) I'm perfectly okay with that ^-^


So, about month ago, I entered a poetry contest to get points for my TWLOHA Fancorps. Maybe 2 weeks ago, a little bit less, I got a letter in the mail stating that I made it to semi-finals. I didn't even think I had a chance! Fingers crossed that I win something :)


So, how is everyone?

TWLOHA

I support To Write Love On Her Arms [TWLOHA] on fancorps.com, and one of my orders is to promote that they have a twitter. So, here I am promoting :) Be sure to check them out

Day 30-Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Me in the mirror,
I see your hair is brown again. Not quite as dark as you like it, but then again you'd rather it be red. Your face is blemished, your nose red. That red is that sunburn you got. Your nose just looks like you've been crying, but your chest is so red you sometimes think it's kinda purple. Your stomach's also quite burnt. Your thighs aren't as bad as they were. You've got more freckles than you usually do- Too much sun. Your eyes aren't bad. Sometimes they're dull and bored, but most of the time they're bright and clear. They're never the same color they were the day before, or at least not that I can recall. Your nose looks okay, at least until someone takes a picture of your profile. Then it looks like a little tomato. My teeth I'll never be happy with. I've gotten used to them, but I'm not happy about them. I'll be getting braces soon. I'm really dreading it because I think braces look horrible and painful, but I know I need them.
Sometimes I think you're beautiful. You stun me with your own kind of beauty. You're nothing to put in a magazine, but you're pretty to those who can see it.
Other times I think you're plain and don't even bother to wonder why only one man wants you.
Your stomach is too chubby
Your thighs just a little too jiggly
Your boobs just quite not big enough [I mean, they have a lot to make up for]
You don't even look that great in corsets
Why can't you be tall and slim, just like you always wanted to be?!
But I digress.
Sometimes I'll love you, sometimes I'll hate you, but in the end I can't change you.
Love,
Yourself

Day 29-The person you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to.

Dear Mum,
I'd like to tell you that I want birth control and why it would be smart for me to have it, but you would SKIN ME ALIVE AND DO OTHER TORTUROUS THINGS TO ME O.O
I want to tell you how much I've started to HATE Alberto recently because he's being a prissy little asshole, but if you didn't slap me then I'd be grounded. Yelling would a given.
I want to tell you what's wrong with this family- Oh, there's so much!- but you'd deny it and get pissed off. You get pissed when I tell you an ounce of truth. You need to stop living in your little fantasy world. Alberto's fueling your fantasy, which only makes you fall deeper in it. I don't even think you can distinguish the reality of why our family can't get along from your fantasy of how it's all my fault. Hell, it's not even Naomi's fault anymore. Both you and Alberto believe it's purely my fault, that I start it all.
Anything you don't agree with has to be wrong, doesn't it? I hope I'm more fair to my children.
Sincerely,
Desiree

Day 28-Someone that changed your life

Dear everyone I know,
Everyone I know has changed/shaped my life in some way.
The way I act
The clothes I buy
What music I listen to
What I do with my free time
I'm not saying you guys have shaped every aspect of my life, but you guys have helped. You guys recommend music, books, movies, animes, manga, anything I may like, you hang out with me, I'm nice to those I like, bitch polite to those I don't, you compliment me, you criticize me, and you keep me sane. You love me, you hate me, you have neutral feelings about me.
You have made me who I am today.
Thank you,
Dei

Day 27-The friendliest person you knew only for a day

Dear ..........
I don't talk to people for only a day.....
No, wait, famous people.

Dear Vic Mignogna,
A lot of successful people let that success go to their heads. But, you; You're a sweetie! Well, at least to your fans' faces. But I'm sure you're actually a sweetie. You just don't seem like you're not :)
I'm so glad I got to meet you. You're my favorite voice actor. You really won that cause you're the voice actor for like every male character in any anime that FUNimation has made XP
I know you're popular. I know your voice is versatile. But damn o.o
I keed, you're awesome :)
Sincerely,
Dei




PS: I only met him once. Therefore I knew him for a day. But technically I've known OF him for a while and saw him at 2 different cons.... I didn't have any better ideas :P

Day 26-The last person you made a pinky promise to

You know, I don't really make pinky promises. I make promises without pinkies though.

Dear Shayne,
I swear we do too much together. You've had half of these letters written to you XD
I promised you I'd always love you. And I always will. Even if we happen to break up, some part of me will still love you. You're not the first person I've loved, but in a way you're my first love. You're the first serious relationship I've had.
I promise to love you forever. I promise to live with you, to be there when you wake up in the morning, there when you go to bed at night.
I love you,
Dei

Day 25-The person you know who is going through the worst of times

Dear everyone,
At some time or another, our families suck. They add to our problems, but you know what, they also take some away. They yell at us for no reason, are unfair, don't get you what you want, or just plain take away your fun.
At some time or another, our friends suck. Or really our peers in general. They gossip, fake, make you feel like shit, or make you feel left out.
At some time or another, our lives in general suck. They're the reason you cry, you're miserable, you wish you were dead or never born at all.
Keep your head up. Even if your family truly sucks and are abusive crackhead whores, they're still family. You only have to put up with them until you're 18. People are going to gossip. Kill them with kindness. Don't let them get to you, I doubt they'll be there forever. Life has it's downs, but focus on the ups. If you focus on every negative detail, you're going to be miserable. Enjoy life. Tomorrow's a new day and today will never be here again.
You could die at any moment; Will you be happy with how you lived if you do?
Sincerely,
Dei

Day 24-The person who gave you your favorite memory

Dear my friends,
You've given me so many memories. I can't even list them all.
Shayne- Every day I have with you gives me a favorite memory. You say and do so many cute cheesy things. You make me believe that nice guys still exist- You're definitely one of them ♥ I look forward to you giving me more favorite memories in the years to come.
Chrissy- Oh my gods, I love hanging out with you! I can tell you anything! You're my best friend and that's never going to change ♥
[There's way, way too many more people to be specific]
Every one of you is a reason to live. You guys are there when I need you-to talk to, to laugh with, to cry on. I love you all.
Love,
Dei

Day 23-The last person you kissed

Dear Shayne,
You've gotten a lot of letters these last 22 days.
I remember the first time we kissed. Well, you kissed me. That kiss isn't the one I really count as our first. I mean, of course it was, but it was one sided. Our first kiss was walking home from the park, me sending out hints that I wanted you to kiss me and you just not getting them. Our first kiss was me storming off and you catching my arm and pulling me back. Our first kiss was secret, not supposed to happen.
Btw, you're the best kisser I've kissed ♥
Love,
Dei

Day 22-Someone you want to give a 2nd chance to

Dear Alanna,
I'm not going to go into detail on the situation that just passed for your privacy. But I'm giving you another chance cause after all that happened I seriously thought about us taking a break. So far things seem to be going pretty great :)
You already know everything I just said so this letter is kinda pointless. Oh well.
Love,
Dei

Day 21-Someone you judged by their first impression

Dear Shayne,
Your first impression wasn't that....great. I'd heard from the group [mainly Chrissy] that you had been after Bre for years [what our group calls a stalker but doesn't really mean it], so I wrote you off. Corey said we'd get along, but after hearing that you were a creeper for Bre, I didn't want to "get along" with you [because he was so obviously thinking of setting us up]. Although, I was a bit interested to meet you. I met you when me, Chrissy, and Mark went to visit Chris back when him and Chrissy started dating. Corey dragged you out of the house because Mark wanted to see you and you were silent, sarcastic, and not too nice. Again, you were written off. I quickly forgot you and only heard about you from Chrissy or Chris about how much Chris hated you. All I ever heard was the bad things you did and I thought you to be mean and rude.
We hung out, all as a group, when I was dating Kyle. Then, I just thought you to be very weird because you kept bringing out your weapons to show off to me. I think that day you offered to give me a piggyback ride but I declined and you gave one to Chris instead.
Wait, didn't we hang out before that? Yes, we did! Corey called me over cause Chris could play the beginning to Nightmare on drums and he [and everyone] knows how much I love A7X :heart: And we played with the shopping cart but I wouldn't let anyone but Corey or Naomi push me cause I was afraid you would go to fast and make me crash. XD
I'm glad your first impression was wrong. I've never personally seen a relationship start out as unlikely as ours. [Although we weren't supposed to date]
I love you,
Dei

Day 20-The one who broke your heart the hardest

I've already written to you. You really didn't break my heart though. If you had broke it, there'd still be a piece of me that knew you mattered. You don't. I guess I'm just fortunate for not having my heart broken.

Day 19-Someone who pesters your mind [good or bad]

Dear Shayne,
You never leave my mind. Everything I do, you're there. Not in that stalkerish kind of way though :) We fight, we kiss, we cuddle, we make love. We're far from perfect, but we're perfect for each other.
Love always,
Desiree

Day 18- The person you wish you could be

Dear me,
I wish you were skinnier. I wish you had bigger boobs. I wish your teeth were perfect. I wish your skin was smooth. I wish you had the face shape that actually looks good. I wish that you didn't get hurt so easily. I wish that you had the means to do what you want to do. I wish that you could pursue your dream of being a house wife [But the economy will never let you do that.] I wish you could draw better. I wish you didn't have to use bases. I wish you could cook better. I wish you knew how to play video games. I wish you could easily make friends instead of being so awkward. I wish college didn't cost so much. I wish you could drive with ease. I wish you spent more time with Ava. I wish you could play an instrument. More so, I wish you could sing. I wish you had a voice that people would actually want to listen to. I wish you weren't so moody. I wish you didn't get so jealous. I wish your hair would turn out the way you wanted it to. I wish you had more things to do with your time. I wish that you had every book, manga, anime, tv show at your reach. I wish your cosplays were better. I wish you didn't have to get a job to have money. I wish people wouldn't say shit about your religion. Or things you liked. Or your dreams. I wish you could live in your fairytale. I wish, for at least a day, you could have everything you wanted. I wish you could have your lolita dresses. I wish all of these things were possible. I know that some probably are, but they're so hard to achieve.
Sincerely,
Yourself

Day 17-Someone from your childhood

Dear Laura,
Do you remember playing Harry Potter on the playground in first grade? You were ALWAYS Harry. I think I commented once that your hair was more of Draco's color and you got mad at me. Now look who you're dressed as for the premiere XD
Do you remember the day when I wore my mom's globe earrings to school and they were heavy so I took them out and lost one and you found it for me?
Do you remember that every Friday when we did whatever it was we did with the fun station thingies, I'd always pick you to be my partner?
Do you remember how when you started third grade your hair was green from swimming all summer? XD That was GREAT!
Do you remember when you read....I think it was Marley&Me and you got all emotional cause you loved your dogs and I sat there trying to comfort you like "WTF DO I DO!!! D:"
Or when we went to that park and caught those bugs and a spider got out and me, Annie Lake-Osbourne, and that student teacher I think she was, went running out of that room?
How about you, me, and Erica trying to plan out when we would see each other again [ie, what schools we were going to go to.] I gave you and her a friendship necklace, and now I don't think any of us knows where ours are.
Seventh grade our English teacher never let us work together because she knew we were best friends. That was completely unfair D:
Eight grade however, our English teacher had the damnedest time trying to keep me, you, and Funsize split up XD
You gave me a lot of my childhood. I love you. Thank you for being my friend all these years. This November we will have known each other for a decade o.o
We're nearly out of school now. I have a feeling it's going to be harder than ever to keep in touch. We're just going to have to make time for each other.
Reminiscing this evening has been enjoyable :) Have fun at the Harry Potter premiere! I still don't know who's a bigger fan :P ♥
Love foreverrr,
Dei

Day 16- Someone that's not in your state

Dear Lewis,
I wrote to you last time. You're my favorite out-of-state person! :D
I love going to cons with you. We should so do Colossalcon again!
I also love going to concerts with you.
More like, I love it when you take me places :)
I'm sorry I don't text you. I just get more easily annoyed over text. Me and you are better in person. But that's okay, you have Shayne to text now :)
Love,
Desiree

Day 15-The person you miss the most

Dear Mamaw,
I miss you the most because I will never be able to talk to you again. But I've already written a letter for you. So, please refer to Day 11.
Love,
Desiree