Weight

Today I went with my step dad to pick my sister up from my dad's. After hugging me, my dad asked me how much weight I'd lost [something that I just can't shut up from happiness] because apparently "there wasn't much to me at all." This got me thinking, "How much weight have I lost?"
I've kept weight out of my blog posts for a variety of reasons, but now I think it's time to have a post dedicated to it.

7th grade:

8th grade:

Beginning of 9th grade:

End of 9th:

10th grade:

• Skinny jeans I bought last year [size 9] are barely able to stay up without a belt
• I find myself being able to wear shirts that used to be too tight on my stomach
• I can fit a size 6 in jeggings, although I prefer my 8s
• I have the "hourglass" dip in my waist now

Since last year I've only lost around 17 pounds. I do not remember how much I weighed before that, although I'm sure I was around the same or a bit more in 8th grade.

I'm proud to say, as of at least Friday, I'm am down to 120 lbs.

Ramblings

Last night I had a dream. Not the weirdest I've had, but odd all the same, and strangely vivid. A mother abandoned her baby daughter and left her to me, and whether I wanted to or not, I had to take care of her. I went to the store with a few of my family members [my dad, my mamaw, possibly one of my aunts] and bought necessities: Bottle, formula, bib, binkies, blanket, and somehow magically ended up with a carrier. I took her to a family thing at what I think was my mamaw's church where the same people who had shopped with me tried to take her to be their own. My dad told me to look for Ava, but she was taken by my family as well, and so he went off to find her. But at that point, I didn't care for Ava, not in the slightest. I fought for my baby, taking the carrier from my mamaw who had left it sitting by her feet, neglecting her and unzipped it to reveal my sweaty, hungry baby. I fed her her bottle, gave her her binky, and rocked her to sleep in my arms, the overwhelming feeling of love blurring my mind.
I awoke feeling empty without her, haunted all day from how strongly I felt. I've never seen faces in my dreams before. I've known they were there, but I've never seen them. However, I saw hers. I saw her scrunched up brown eyes, her wailing open mouth, her thin black hair, and her tan skin....
Now that I think about it, maybe with some alterations, she could've been mexican. Funny, I'm having baby dreams for the wrong parent.

Ava will be here in 12 days. Not many days, but such a long wait.
I wonder if I'll sleep more soundly once she's here.
♥

January

It's hard to believe that it's already half-way through January. There's so much to do, and so little time in which to do it. Events explode in 2 weeks, and I don't know if I'm ready for them yet.
On the 27th, Ava Marie will be born, if she isn't born sooner. Anne doesn't know if she'll last that long, but I think she'll make it.
On the 28th is the Avenged Sevenfold and Stonesour concert in Lexington, KY. Yes, I am skipping school that day for A7X ♥
The 28th-30th is Ohayocon. So far, I still haven't gotten my plans on who I'm going with or what I'm cosplaying straightened out. I hope I can go with Natty, for that would be really fun, but idk. I think it's almost certain I'm going to the rave with Shayne :) OTHER PEOPLE SHOULD GO WITH US CAUSE I DON'T DANCE SO I DON'T WANNA POINTLESSLY STAND AROUND FOREVER FEELING AWKWARD O.O
There's not much I can do to get ready, I've realized. I ordered a new Mello wig, but I can only sit and wait for it, most of my outfits are already together, and I can't figure out who I'm going with until Natty talks to her mom.


Btw, Chrissy is now known as Natty because she feels there are too many Chris' (or variations, like Chrissy) in the world. :)


Tomorrow, I'm going to the doctor's again. I have to miss my morning exam and come in later to make it up >.< I would've much rather just done it yesterday when I had no morning exams. Ah well. Hopefully in a few weeks I'll be sorted out so I can stop missing school :) Besides for A7X, of course XD

Break

Hey everyone! I hope everyone had a merry Christmas and has a happy New Year! :D What did y'all get for Christmas? I got a bunch of things, but I think my favorite is my panda pillow pet, which I have named Paul. I treat him with more love than half of my friends :) XD


So, I've spent most of my break either at Shayne's or watching Soul Eater. I'd say it's been pretty well spent. Monday I had a doctor's appointment [I'm down to 120.2 lbs!!!], then Shayne came over and we built a fort in preparation for Chrissy to spend the night, then Corey came over too. Twas probably the best day of break so far! Chrissy and I are going to Laura's tomorrow to spend the night for New Years, so that may top it o.o Then again, maybe not. I doubt anyone is going to nearly literally throw Chrissy across the room XD


I've been looking up what weird holidays fall on mine and some of my friends' birthdays. My birthday is on Occult Day. I feel this fits. XD Laura's birthday is on Best Friends Day and Nae Your Poison Day. I feel this may fit even more than mine XDD Laney's birthday is on National Pastry Day. I think I'm jealous. My sister, Naomi, has her birthday on Be Bald and Free Day XD My youngest sister, Ava, will be born on Chocolate Cake Day and Punch the Clock Day.
If you wanna see what's on your birthday, go here ---> http://holidayinsights.com/moreholidays/index.htm


And now, I will lead you to one of the best websites in existence! MyLifeIsAverage.com. If you've ever read anything along the lines of Fmylife, GivesMeHope, or anything like that, you should read the stories on here. The stories are thousands, if not millions or billions times better than the others I mentioned. That's what gave me the idea to get a Harry Potter coloring book and why I'm proud to have a pillow pet XD



Well, I'm bored.

Paul

Donovan

After we opened our gifts on Christmas. Idk, I like the lighting :)

Should we eat insects?

No matter how many good points you can find for eating insects, I refuse to do it! I mean, I know that I "accidentally" eat bugs every day just by eating processed foods, but I don't actually see the bug or hear it crunch. I practically don't know it's there.

Eating insects may be healthier for the enviorment [since their waste doesn't give off as much greenhouse gases as cow manure], more abundant, and have "good quality meat," but there is NO way I'm going to actually eat them. O.O

At Hot Topic [and many other places] they sell insect candies. My friend, Laura, bought some seasoned crickets and a scorpion lollipop and ate them as we walked around the mall. It sickened me to see her eat the crickets, especially when she spat a leg that was stuck on her tongue at one of my other friends. I was okay with the scorpion lollipop, even trying it before she got to the scorpion part. Watching her bite the pincher was so unreal I again felt nauseuous.

I can never substitute insects for beef and pork.

Holidays

Lately, many people have asked me why I celebrate Christmas since I am not Christian. My answer is always the same: I celebrate the happiness that the Christmas season brings, and of course, the presents. This answer is always met with doubtful looks and ocasionally a scoff or laugh, which makes me wonder, why do people celebrate Christmas, Hanukkah, or any other holiday? Do they, like me, celebrate it because it is how they were raised? Do the holidays have meaning for them? Do they celebrate the happiness, or are they just in it for the presents?

Also, do you know how difficult holidays are when your parents are divorced? Being 16, I should be able to choose where I spend Christmas, but yet my mom still likes to "rotate" the holidays each year. Last year, being with my dad, I when to his family's Christmas eve party, then got up at 5 the next morning to open presents at his house then go to my uncle's house to open more presents with my cousins and grandparents, then to Anne's mom's house for dinner. The year before, I was with my mom and she dragged me to Alberto's house [he was only her boyfriend then] where I isolated myself in a room with his computer and didn't eat cause everything was mexican. Now, this year, I'm with my mom again, and she wants to have my step aunt and Shayne over for dinner. I'll still be allowed to go to my dad's for the Christmas Eve party, but I doubt I can go to my uncle's, and highly, highly doubt I can go to Carol's....


Another also:
What do you get your boyfriend for Christmas?! D:

Birthdays

My birthday was Thursday, and I must say it was a great one. On my actual birthday, none of my family was at home [they all had to work], so I took my sister over to Shayne's and hung out over there :)
Saturday was my party. Chrissy got me the A7X shirt I'm wearing today and Laney gave me the most adorable card ever :D Breanna's card tried to eat me. I swear, you shoulda seen the amount of sparkles o.o My mum and step dad got me a netbook, so now I'm really excited for the school to get wireless! :D
Yesterday my dad picked me up from Shayne's and took me over to my step gran's and then my mamaw's. My step gran had no clue what to get me, but she did pretty great with the clothes she got me. My step mom gave me a beautiful box with the trinity symbol on it and a Gir gift card to ht <3 My dad got me Death Note figurines. I <3<3<3 the Mello one :) Since I wasn't expecting to get really anything, I was really surprised [but in a happy way :D]


Now, Laney, we just have to get to your birthday. I can't wait to give you your gift!!!! :D